mothers always right

I am blogging through my iPhone... Using only my left eye! Why? Because I have a habit of listening to everything my mother suggests or demands that i do THAT'S WHY!! Ok I need to calm down... I'm at home with a terrible sinus infection went to the local pharmacy and got aleve sinus. My mother is into all natural and holistic remedies so she almost fainted when I said I purchased aleve. She convinced me that if I took it i would probably die or get cancer...

 so I came home to try some home remedies...

 Like boiling cilantro and inhaling the fumes, and rubbing oil of oregano around my nose and cheek bones and forehead ... Yea that is strong stuff! I was concerned because I knew how strong that oil is but when i put it on I couldn't smell anything so I thought - awesome! Fast forward five minutes and my left eye was burning and watering and I can't open it cuz it burns so much ...:/ I couldn't find any damn cilantro so I called my mother and she said - oh I guess we ran out, try getting some rest. She calls back five minutes later and tells me there is allegra in the medicine cabinet!

Ode to Otilia

Knitting, Drawing, Painting, Dancing

Smiling, Laughing, Loving, Daring

From the lessons to teach

to the songs to sing

This is my ode

Always think yes

and Never forget

Only you can decide

what to do with your life

Lessons learned and times approached

Baseballs, and Marbles, Gardens and Barbies

Act like a lady

But

don't depend on a man

This is my ode to one i adore

If counting the stars

would bring your smile again

Id count and count

Til numbers no more

I didn't believe in True Love

until it left me

Now theres a hole

where my heart should be

If calling the moon

would make your heart beat again

Id call and yell and beg

until my chords were no more

I didn't believe in True Love

until it killed me

Every day stronger

Every day brighter

Butterfly Wings

the little birds sing

Everything beautiful reminds me of you

this is my ode

to Otilia

Your heart My heart

Your art My art

Humbleness, Patience and pride

You will live forever

in mine

Everything beautiful

Reminds me of you

Puppy Love

My first 'boyfriend' was adorable. Of course it was in High School and the summer after my Senior Year but it was none the less special (at the time). As I was in the shower, lathering, rinsing, and repeating, I couldn't help but wonder where the F my relationships started going wrong.... my conclusion came to the fact that it can all be traced back to this individual.

It was puppy love definatley! I did start suspecting he was seeing someone else when at a club his friends and father started panicking when they saw me, friends are the first to give everything away. Our relationship ended ubruptly with no explanations because from one night to the next he slept with some random floozy... He decided to drink at his house with family, and his fathers girlfriend and HER friend. One of my best friends happens to be a relative and happend to be at the party so I was given the 411 the next morning. " He was super drunk and falling asleep, so we took him to the room, went to the living room, decided to go to sleep, couldn't find that other girl, his sister looked in his room and there she was laying with him! He woke up this morning pissed off and cursing!"

 But he stayed with her.

Today he is married to her. She is 32, six years older than him. Has two kids. Their house recently burned down and the family is suspecting foul play on her behalf. I was told he is miserable and always comment that hes just with her for the kids. I'm not going to say this makes me happy because it doesn't. It doesn't make me happy or sad or mad.

 I REALLY just dont give a damn. :)

And that my friends is the moral of the story!

Ive had to go through some crazy ordeals with many a strange gentlemen but I am HAPPY and SINGLE and I would not change my horrible dating history for anything ANYTHING in the world because I believe I have learned many valueable lessons from every single one of these morons.

Life Lessons from Spencer

Lately I have been neglecting my cat. Not out of anger or hatred (haha) but life is spinning way too fast and I havent had much time to focus on him. Spencer is strictly an outdoor feline, mainly because my mother is OCD but also because I live out in the country and fresh air is good for pets people!

This morning I realized I couldn't remember if I had fed Spence dinner the night before (terrible i know). I'm sure I did but my memory is unfortunatly failing me. As I grabbed a can of his sliced beef in gravy my mother said- "Don't feed him,  he won't be hungry- he just mauled a groundhog" I said "EWW" as I headed to the window to look for myself.

Sure enough he was bent over chewing on breakfast... So now I am at work thinking.... I need to be more like my cat! He didn't wait around for me to give him breakfast  (dinner?). He took action and picked a fresh kill over his can of processed food. If I was to apply that to my life a little more who knows where I could end up... So here it is- time to catch, kill, and devour that groundhog/goal peeping its head in and out of life! 

 Needless to say- I will definatley remember Spencers dinner today!

Only the Good die Young

My highschool class president was the most cheerful and friendly girl in our class, she was a twin and was diagnosed with some form of cancer our senior year... she passed away the next year. Two years ago our class clown who was a tall, handsome, and crazy funny guy passed away unexpectedly from a heart attack at the age of 24.

Today my coworker and friend passed away at the tender age of 18. I cant fathom the pain of his mother, grandparents, or sister but as his work family I have to say its really painful. With a heavy heart and a foggy head I will say this:

J.B. They say only the good die young and it is unfortunatley devestatingly true.  You were one of the few genuinley nice people i have ever met! It is unfortunate and heartwrenching that God called you to his side earlier than anyone would of wanted you to go. I will miss your huge smile and playful attitude...We all loved you like family and we are completley heartbroken by this tragedy. I threw your water cup away today after staring at it for what seemed like hours.. I accidentally drank from it yesterday and forgot to tell you...but I am sure you would of laughed at me and said its ok. I did design a tshirt for you like you asked me to yesterday i was going to order it today. I saw the pole and heard how you passed and all I can think is that I really hope you did not feel any pain you went in peace. Tonight I'm praying for your mother  and asking God to give her strength.  I'm also praying for the rest of the wonderful and young people in our lifes for it seems those are the first to go. Your last words to me were "See you later Laura, have a good one!" I will see you in the next life my friend... You will be GREATLY and truly missed....

BBQ's and Abortions

Two days ago I arrived home after work and found three of my neighbors cats in my driveway. I love cats so my first reaction was excitement. That all quickly faded as I noticed the reason they were gathered there. They were feasting on something small and furry. I walked towards them to make sure it wasn't on of the adorable little red birds that house themselves in one of our pine trees and realized it was some kind of rodent... I couldn't make out what it was because what was left of it was its two legs, a tail and a FETUS!!

no kidding.

It is by far one of THE grossest things I've ever seen (And I was in the delivery room when my best friend had her baby). It was laying off to the side and all pink and wiggly struggling for survival although it was covered in ants. Even though it was a fetus it was ALIVE and trying it's hardest to survive. I bet your now wondering what I did next... I ran gagging trying not to throw up like any normal human being would... I'm getting nauseous just thinking about it again.

I think it was God's way of teaching me a lesson. Just the day before I had had a discussion with my gal pal about Abortions, she was pro-life i was pro-choice. We agreed to disagree.

I think the cats just changed my mind.

Pessimisim at its best

So last weekend I went to a "Trade Days" event with my mother. It's similar to a flea market/fair/festival/EVENT that a small nearby town hosts twice a year.

We walked into an Art booth and we both gawked at a beautiful large painting of a cowboy riding a horse down a hill holding flowers on one hand and a red box in the other hand.

My mother immediately said, "Aww would you look at the poor guy, how sad, he's taking flowers to his beloveds grave."

With my jaw to the floor (in shock) I turned around and said " MOM!! hes OBVIOUSLY taking flowers and a box of chocolates to his girlfriend. Why would a dead person need chocolates?"

We left the Booth laughing.

She finally admitted to what my sisters and I have been bugging her about for years.
She is the eternal pessimist. Her cup will always be half empty, and the flowers will be for a grave.